I have been forced to resign from an international bank. I was hired after they gave me a test at their own premises, and after five interviews. I started coughing by the time this process was over. Anyone in their right mind would have dropped out of the process since it is clearly not an employee-friendly place. But who says no to an international bank that one has read about in their graduate course?
Like a former colleague joked ‘They made you an offer you couldn’t refuse’.
While I was at this bank, I felt completely shorn of my confidence. I tended to forget everything I knew and I started taking IQ tests online on the bank’s own computer to check if my brain had fried up. I spoke to a former classmate who worked with the main bank. He told me to “suck it up”. Well I sucked it up and sucked it up till I visited a hospital where a fraud doctor was trying to take my money by shaming me, my dad was exhausted driving me tothe bank, and I kept telling my classmate “Is a job worth it if it makes you want to die’?
Turns out it IS NOT! Well wishers told me they were treating me like a fresher. Still I allowed myself to be gaslit repeatedly. After 6 months, they took me out of the office premises and asked me to leave. At the HR interview, I said my colleagues are nice people.
I didn’t know what was happening. I refused to enter the job market for several months. I saw a psychiatrist who started prescribing medicines, which I should take to wake up at 6am, at which point I thought this is madness and just stopped seeing her. (she being a former Padma awardee)
Now, to all those people who did this to me, karma will take over.. I release negativity from my system.
